O is for optimistic...

I like to think that I'm a pretty positive person. Definitely an optimist. But it's hard to keep up when you're faced with a constant pessimist. I can understand a person gets beat down over the years but still! So while I'm trying to keep myself up, I feel like I'm getting dragged down. The thing is, I refuse to let myself fall under this spell. Misery may love company but I'm not biting. I want to be happy. I want to be successful. And I'm not letting anyone drag me down. Especially when my plan interrupts theirs. I am choosing to better myself. If that's "uncomfortable" for those around me, to freakin' bad!

*deep breath*

So what's sparing all of this conversation? I finally made the life change I needed to make all my life. I'm starting to take better care of myself. At 30, I'm seeing my 50+ loved ones battling high blood pressure, diabetes, and aches and pains that should come much later in life. I decided I don't want that for me. And with my current lifestyle, that road will come much sooner than 50. I decided that playing with my daughter, being at her graduation, watching her say "I do" is more important than overeating. I choose a healthy lifestyle. Not a "DIET" but a whole new life. Everything I've ever done before? GONE OUT THE WINDOW!!! New lifestyle, new life, new me! I want this SO bad, nothing or no one is going to sabotage me! It has to stop NOW!

Yeah, this is pretty heavy stuff. That's because it's a heavy situation. But don't worry, it'll be for long...it'll be much lighter as time goes by. :)

Take care peeps!
~B