Taking a break

Boy, the importance of taking a break really hit home tonight. L has been sleeping through the night mostly...but not last night. I was up for about an hour, which is great, but it still disturbs my sleep. Since 3 p.m. seems to be her long nappy time, I waited till then to get some zzzs. Unfortunately, she didn't want to nap then. I peek into her crib and see her bright eyes and big smile beaming up at me. So sweet, but so frustrating. I took her in bed with me, which I'm not a fan of, and she did sleep. I got less than an hour in. I guess it was something but I'm really tired this evening. And since the weather is bad, I didn't go to Curves...though I wished so bad I could have.

It's hard being home here and "trying" to be off duty for a while. I know MIL & DH are capable of caring for the kids. It's just hard for me to shut it out. Perfect example...I was chatting with a friend on the phone, trying hard to pay 100% attention to the conversation. But it's hard to when you hear your baby girl wailing in pain and your big girl copying for attention. I just want to shut it all out. No wonder I've started a nightly drinking habit. :) Thankfully I'm heading to my tubby shortly and can let the jets roar. The girls can wail as loud as they want then, cause I definitely won't hear them. Well, I better go...E's still "crying"...so is L. Some days being a mom is for the birds.
~B