The exciting world of Lily

My goodness...you forget so much of your first child's growth. Since having L, I keep trying to remember when E did things in her stages of growth. Thank goodness for the baby book cause it all seems a blur to me. I remember E cried a lot. I'm sure she was as pleasant as L after a while but all I remember specificially is the crying.

Believe me when I say, I love my children equally, for different reasons. I just tend to gush more about L cause she is so new. I have L to myself 2 days a week while E's in daycare so I try to save it up for those days. :) E is such a little character and the more I see her become her own person, the more I realize how much she's like me. And why wouldn't she?? I'm numero uno in her life. I'm her main care giver. And no matter what any child says, they always want to be like their parents.

When I was going to be a mom, I wanted to do things just like my own mother did. After a while I realized I'm not like her...I'd like to say I'm not as strong as she is. I lose my temper with E and sometimes yell at her. I never wanted to be a mom like that. But I'm not my mom, I'm me. And although I'm not always the mom I want to be, I'm only human. I'm trying, just like the other moms out there. I'm sure my own mother didn't have all the answers. By the time she had me, she knew more, but I was #3. My poor brother got to be the ginny pig for us. Guess that's what it's like with everyone's first. You try to do it right, by the book, and well, ginny pig syndrome. At the end of the day, all you can do is your best, right?

L is similar to E in a lot of ways. She's funny, fun to be around, full of joy and life. It's just that E's trying to be independant and gets frustrated when she can't get everything "perfect." (Where did she get that notion???? Guess who?) L's at an innocent stage where everything is exciting and she's curious about it. You can do the same silly face over and over and still get a laugh. :) I love that innocense. In time, she'll be bossy too, just like her old mama...or less caring about the little things like her dad. Either way, it's an exciting journey seeing your babies become little people.

~B