Waiting for the upside...

...I think it's safe to say that dear hubby and I have had a rough year or so. He got "laid off" while I was on MAT leave. Suffered a little financial strain there for about 4 months. Then I was rear-ended. Add that to the mix. Then went on a very expensive trip to CB a few months later. Engine blew. Fixed it. Paid for it. 4 days later, wrote off the van, my fault. Same week the computer dies and the dryer breaks down. All the while, some home renos are waiting in the wings to be done.

Last night, discovered a leak behind the main bath sink. How? The laminate in the laundry room is now raised up. So to my home improvement list I have the crawl space, flooring in master bedroom and flooring in laundry room. Have I mentioned I am out $500 in extra expenses this month??

I know I have NO RIGHT to complain when I think of the people who lost their homes and everything they own in Katrina. I just feel beat down. Just when we strike one thing off the list, something else adds to it. I'm so frustrated! Only 3 years left of my student loan, thank God! Because we're drowning right now. My worry is can we tread water for 3 more years? I'm not entirely sure.

*phone rings*

Oh, and that was the good people at Midas. My exhaust on the van is bad. $215+ tax to fix it. *sigh* I know it's very reasonable but it's just 'one other thing.' I think my credit card is going to bleed to death! But what can I do? I don't have the money. And no sense of borrowing it from someone cause I can't pay it back. Makes me think I should get a side job. But with what time?? I'd like to have a relationship with my daugher. *heavy sigh* 3 more years huh? Boy, that's a long time to wait for an upside.

~B