When being a LOSER is a good thing. :)

Curves is having it's own 8 week Biggest Loser challenge. I don't think there's any reward at the end...other than losing weight. Still I thought it might be the motivation I need to get going. Today I got through with very little sugar. Healthy breakfast, lunch and dinner. Only exception was in the afternoon. L had a bad spell. I was trying to start her onto homo milk (with daycare starting next week). I think it's giving her troubles. She cried for 2 hours wanting desperately to sleep but unable to. We gave her tylenol, ovol and in the end, she fell asleep on my chest. Poor doll! Anyway, DH was home during the ordeal and I was stress and wanted sugar. He lovingly brought me a teaspoon of "nutella" with peanut pieces sprinkled on it. Of course I'm thinking my whole day is ruined. Truthfully, it isn't that bad. But what is bad about it is that I'm using food to sooth...even if it's just a teaspoon. Anyway, I did see it as something nice he was trying to do, although a bit misguided.

So, in this challenge we make a goal for the 8 weeks. I chose to lose 15 pounds. I hate putting numbers to goals like that because if I lost 14.9 pounds, I see it as a failure. My head is full of negative talk: 15 pounds is a drop in the bucket, you have SO much more to lose than that....what makes you think you'll do it this time...you're gonna fail like all the other times, why bother. It's hard to shut out the noise. I really must read my book tonight although I just want to crawl in bed and watch TV. I know it's not productive at all. I'm making a deal with myself...just a 1/2 hour with the book and then I can rest my brain for the night. I'm also a bit anxious cause I foolishly booked Dr. appts for both girls tomorrow FOR 8:30!!! And it's L's intro at daycare. Wish me luck!!

Nighty night!
~B