God's testing me

Everytime we're in a tight spot...and I can start seeing the light at the end of the tunnel...a boulder falls down and blocks the way. I was so glad that I'm starting work so we can finally get ahead of the bills...and DH gets laid off today. UGH! I keep thinking I've had all I can handle and this happens. I want to bury myself in hot fudge...I know, sounds weird but that's how I cope, I eat. I just feel like at any moment this deck of cards is going to fall under my feet. I'm trying to pay off the student loan...I'm not sure if I'll have enough money to pay daycare next month, or the bills. This month I had to cover daycare on my line-of-credit. It just feels never ending. It's hard to maintain the focus that "the Lord will provide." I'm sure I mentioned the story of the little birds. When the disciples worried about how to feel the mass of Jesus' followers, Jesus said, 'See the little birds? They do not worry about getting their food. They know their Father will provide for them.' I have to think the same way but it's hard to go by one's faith...esp. when that person likes to have the plan laid out in front of her.

But I know worrying won't help...like Myrna says, worrying is like rocking in a rocking chair...it's something to do but you won't get anywhere. :) Always makes me laugh. Anyway, I'm at least happy we'll be able to get things done around the house. The garage needs just a few more hours to be done. And now that DH will have some free time, he can paint out bedroom & ensuite. Gotta look on the bright side, right? Well, I gotta run and make a few calls. TTFN! Have a great wknd.
~B